Wow, I just read part of a post from a year ago that surprised me. A couple of days after the full moon last September this is what I wrote.
"A couple of days ago we enjoyed another full moon. It was absolutely beautiful. For a couple of days before and a couple of days after, if we are blessed with a clear sky, we can enjoy the beauty that is the full moon, in all its splendor.
They say that people see a man in the moon; that the shadows on the moon create a face. Personally, ever since I was about 14, I can remember looking at the moon and seeing a "perfect" family portrait. It is a dream that I hold on to, for the day when God chooses to bless me with a new "picture". For now, I simply enjoy the beauty of the night sky and dream."
I didn't realize how terrible that sounds, as if the family I have isn't good enough. I am sorry for what I wrote.
I adore my daughter and she is making me a grandmother, hopefully within the next month. I love my grandbaby's daddy. And of course I love my grandbaby and cannot wait to meet him or her. I come from a large biological family who I love very much, but they are not my only family - I have my heart family; the one with which God has chosen to bless me.
A couple of days ago we did enjoy another full moon and this time my full moon came with a message. As I was leaving the church and the ladies bible study I was blessed with a full moon right in front of me. Part of me was initially saddened because I was still waiting for that "perfect" family, as if my family lay incomplete in front of me. It was that moment that God reminded me of something profound. My family is perfect, my family is complete because it is the family God has chosen for me. God may add people to it or take them away, but that doesn't mean that it is incomplete right now. It is perfectly complete.
I am truly blessed with many around me who are family, whether by blood or by heart who have poured into my life and have chosen to walk along side me on this journey. This year God has blessed me with some people who are quickly becoming very dear to my heart, people who pour into me and allow me to pour into them, as we do this thing called life. I have new brothers and sisters that mean the world to me and I am thankful for their investment in my life. They are people who believe in me, who allow me to use my gifts, talents and abilities, who value me, respect me and love me. They are people who challenge me to grow and allow me to challenge them right back. I can truly say I am blessed beyond!
I still wait for the possibility of God blessing me with a man to walk beside and share life with someday, but I choose to actively wait for him, living my life for today, to bring honour and glory to my God. I am complete. I am whole, just the way I am.
